Past the moon and into Forever

“You are sending off energy - emitting energy - right now, from the center of your being in all directions. This energy - which is you - moves outward in wave patterns. The energy leaves you, moves through walls, over mountains, past the moon, and into Forever. It never, ever stops.”  ~~Neale Donald Walsch Facebook post, 08/03/16.

This statement is a complete, total, physical-realm, capital-T, scientific TRUTH. I mean that, really: it's physics; it's measurable. And this statement has a spiritual implication of personal responsibility that stuns me with its importance. This unstoppable energy I emit with every breath and beat of my heart: what kind of energy IS it?

Do I fill the world with anger, fear, resentment, blame, and pain? Or do I send out wave after wave of love, joy, gratitude, empathy, curiosity, and enthusiasm? 

My energy. My choice.

I’m thinking of the work of Dr. Masaru Emoto, who photographed the effects of various energy forms, from music to prayer to emotion, on water. If hate, disgust, love, prayer, and Beethoven can create different crystalline forms in water, and I am 60% water, in fact my brain is 90% water….

Well, let’s just say that, if others’ unstoppable energy is passing through my personal little body of water, I’d like for the effect to be the beautiful, sparkling crystals formed in the wake of love.

So why not return the favor to you? I wouldn’t want to have any effect on you, my fellow little skin-bags-of-mostly-water, other than the gently-glittering and delicate crystalline form of peace. That’s why I am completely dedicated to removing any barrier within me that prevents my unstoppable, continuous energy emission from being tuned to beauty, grace, love, and joy.

Water crystal in response to "You disgust me."

“Ah!” you may be saying, “but it’s hard to emit the energies of love and joy when my life full of pain has turned my insides into green slime already.” I agree. It is hard to emit love from a place of pain. But "hard" is never a good excuse to use with someone like me.

Do you think that nobody else has had a challenging life? Do you think that yours is even among the most challenging? Look around you! Look at the people who have less than you:  LOTS less money and stuff, to be sure; but also less education, less love and support in their lives, less physical ability, less mental capacity, less opportunity…. Really look at them and see what lives of bliss many of them live! Now, really look at the state of your own life and ask, "Why am I not able to live in bliss, when I've got it so much better than them?"

I don’t like playing the one-ups game of whose pain has been the greatest but let’s get real for just a second! My alcoholic, sociopathic father started sexually assaulting me when I was 6 months old and continued his abuse into my teen years. Think about that life for a minute or two (but don’t get lost there) and then tell me that it’s too hard to get past your pain. "Hard" is just a story we tell ourselves when we're afraid we can't.

And, by the way, I readily acknowledge that my life has been abundantly blessed with many gifts that others only dream about. In fact, I don’t think I had it so very bad, if you can believe that!

Actually, that awareness is one of the outcomes of re-tuning the settings on my relentless energy

Water crystal in response to "Love and gratitude"

output. We’re talking pure cause and effect, my friend! The intention to emit only love’s vibration, and my impeccable devotion to that intention, have made me the person who can say that 16 years of sexual abuse was “not so very bad.” After all, while I endured that pain, I lived in a middle-class neighborhood, had plenty to eat and nice clothes to wear, and lots of other good things in my life, like summer camp and gifts for my birthday every year and every Christmas. Tuning into universal love has made me the person who can be grateful to my father for the lemons he handed me and from which I have made some truly amazing lemonade.

How do I do it? I start by listening to my own beliefs and lining up my life around them. For example, I believe that there is a creative force at work in the universe. Call it God, call it the Divine, call it Buddha, call it Mother Nature – the name is irrelevant to the force itself. I believe that all that has ever been created has been formed by and of this universal energy. Therefore, I am formed of this energy. That makes me a physical manifestation of this incredible power.

Well, then, it follows logically that I cannot be made for the purpose of living in despair. I cannot be made of and by a creative and divine life force so that I can live in pain and grief. If I am made of and by the light, then I am the light, too. Therefore, the darkness I experience is an illusion I create by covering the light, refusing to see the truth of its existence, even as I say I believe in it. If I truly believe I am divinity's flower unfolding in the physical world, how then can I also believe that I am destined for solitary struggle all my short life?

Okay, so that is step one:  recognizing that how I live isn’t lined up with what I deeply believe to be true about my nature, and then continuously re-tooling my words and deeds to align around my belief. Maybe your belief is different; that’s fine, of course…and do your actions and words align with what you say you believe? However you believe you were created, are you honoring that creation with the energy you're paying forward into the world?

Step two is allowing the beauty of life to touch me. It is acknowledging that, amidst the many events of a day, of a life, SO many can be catalogued as blessings. Just after a moment of regret, I can raise my eyes to a breathtaking smile on the face of a stranger. On the other side of a moment of pain, a child can put her small hand into mine, delivering hope.

Yes, I still feel the regret, still experience the pain. But when I stop closing my eyes to all the beauty, grace, joy, and love that fill the many moments between those challenging moments, I begin to see the powerfully overwhelming ratio. Billions and billions of moments of love and beauty in my lifetime so far…when I focus my attention on them, they simply overwhelm the balance scale. My collection of painful moments is big, no doubt! Sixteen years of childhood sexual abuse make their weight known. Yet, they just can’t stack up to the never-ending cascade of joy, as the creative life force expresses itself endlessly, all around me.

“No one else can feel it for you; only you can let it in.” This lyric from Natasha Bedingfield's Unwritten is holding me gently in its cupped palms these days. The whole song is pounding along my arteries as a new theme for my life, but this one sentence is cradling me, reminding me:  only I can choose to let in the joy. If all I see in my life is sorrow and betrayal and pain, then it is the blinders I choose to wear that make it so. Because divine life cannot be held back; it’s there, always, dancing out its mystery for its own pleasure and our amazement. No one else can see or feel that for me. Only I can let it in.

And with each wave of joy that makes its way through my little personal body-bag of water, the crystalline form of who I am becomes more and more what I am meant to be. The peaceful pond that is my true nature emerges from the green slime that used to be all I could see and feel. The more I allow entry to the many moments of love expressing in the world, the more love flows back out of me.

Now, thanks to Neale Donald Walsch and an early-morning stroll through Facebook, I feel a powerful, yet gentle, sense of responsibility to continue to retune my outgoing energy, my never-ceasing emission of love. Because my constant waves, my continuously-emitting energy “moves through walls, over mountains, past the moon, and into Forever. It never, ever stops.”

When it moves through you, I want it to leave crystalline gems of beauty in its wake. I see your joyful love expressing, as well as my own. Now that I have seen, I can never stop seeing it.

 

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Dr. Scott's website is being upgraded and is sadly out of date. Watch this blog for news of her weekend intensive this fall, Live a Sovereign Life with the 7 Childhood Treasures. She expects to publish her book of the same name in 2017.